I’ve written before about the myriad of reasons you might not have been cast, but this weeks experience was a stunning example of how the result of your audition is completely out of your hands.
Please bare with me sounding like a D-bag as I give you some background for this story.
I am no stranger to feeling like I KILLED it in the audition room, then not booking the gig. This is just another one of the maddening realities of acting. The following excerpts have been taken verbatim from my own experiences.
commercial callback, circa 2009
CD: “Hey Brittany! So glad you could come in- you look perfect for the part! This is the director, Steve. You ready?”
Brittany: “Sure! Let’s do this!”
<commence scene with dialogue between me and other guy>
(CD is laughing, and making comments. Director guffaws.)
<end scene>
Steve (director): “That was fantastic! Seriously, you’re the only one today who nailed this and totally understood the scene. Loved it!”
I kid you not, he then HIGH FIVED me
(on my way out the door)
CD: (conspiratorially) “Brittany, seriously, thank you so much for coming in for the callback- you saved my ass today.”
Brittany: “You’re so welcome! Thanks for having me!”
I walked out of that room on cloud nine. Clearly I nailed that audition and could count the job as mine. I got a latte at starbucks to celebrate my win….
And then I didn’t book the gig. Seriously. They went with someone else. Which brings me to this weeks stunner.
Sunday I went in for a commercial audition with a creative team that I recently read for before the break. I was glad they called me in, because that means they liked me last time round, even if I didn’t book the prior gig. I worked the scene in the car and felt prepared with some funny little buttons and space work.
CD: “Hey Brittany! So glad you could come in, this is our director, Greg.”
I could tell the mood of the room was laid back and fun, like last time, so I joked around a bit and got to know them more.
Greg (director): “I love your personality. I don’t think I need to tell you anything before you read, because I get the feeling you’ll show me something I want to see. So just have fun with it.”
<commence scene with all the ideas I had in the car>
(CD and director are laughing and have huge grins)
<end scene>
CD: “Aha! See, THAT’S what actors do. Everyone has been coming in today and blowing it, but you so got this.”
Greg: “I loved it! Seriously, that was really fun and that’s the best read we’ve seen. Let’s try it a few different ways, not because I didn’t like it, because I loved what you did, I just want to see what else you can show me.”
Brittany: “Great! Let’s do this!”
<commence scene, end scene>
Greg: “Brittany, thank you so much. That was amazing, and I loved what you did. You did great! I’d love to work with you!”
CD: “So, you’re available Friday for the shoot, right? Just want to make sure.”
Brittany: “Yep!”
CD: “Great, this is a quick turnaround, so you’ll hear from us very soon. Thanks again, Brittany! We would love to work with you!”
<commence fist bumps all around>
I left with a big smile and sent this text to my husband: Totally KILLED it! Coming home!
I went on with my week, had another audition for another project, and worked on some other things around the house. Come Thursday, I think “hm, probably should’ve heard back about this job by now if it shoots tomorrow…”
So I sent an email to the CD thanking him again for the audition. He writes back:
”
Hey Brittany,
Thanks for the note — you are great. The brand decided to go with an actress that has a more ethnic look, but we all loved you for it, in fact we sent your tape to the client. We do a lot of comedy stuff as you can see from our website and really want to work with you the next time we have a role that fits.
“
See? See? Sometimes what you do in the audition is great, and you make fans of everyone in the room, but you still don’t get the part because of something that’s entirely out of your hands. Though I can lay down a sweet rap beat, there is not one picogram of ethnic look in me, and I can’t change that. But I do know that I will work with these people eventually. I’m building a community here where we can all trust that we’ll bring our A game and make something good. And that’s something to rejoice over, even if I didn’t get the part (grumble, grumble) : )