So much has happened. I nailed my musical audition, and went through a grueling 3 hour callback the next night. My dancing was ok, not amazing, but good enough, my acting was pretty good, and my singing was right where I hoped it would be. I know that I gave 200% at that audition and callback, and I didn’t hold anything back. However, I was not cast. I made it to the final 2, and, alas, the other gal will be telling Sally Bowles’ story, not I. For a few minutes I felt rather depressed that even my utmost effort and my highest performance level was not good enough to be cast, but overall, I’m incredibly proud of all I gave. Usually I hold a little something back at auditions. Call it a protection mechanism, it’s just what I do. Not so with this musical. So even though I’m crestfallen that I still am not in a musical, I am reminding myself that it doesn’t mean I have less talent or I’m wasting my time being an actor because I’m clearly not good enough. There is so much out of my control in the casting process. All I can do is give my all. And I did. End of story. So, the journey continues to find one.
After that I went to Portland and discovered the happiest place on Earth, Powell’s Bookstore. Spent a few hours lovingly looking through every floor and category that tickled my fancy. Then it was on to a PacNW adventure: Seattle->Squamish, BC->Whistler, BC->Coupeville,WA->Pt Townsend, WA->Seattle. Lots of hiking and waterfalls and ferry’s and coffee made that trip a delight. Now that my feet have found their mooring, I’m hard at work trying to get my endless to-do’s to become to-dones.
I also got to film a commercial that was the alternate reality version of a dream come true for me. My world settles in the realm of Darcy, Dorrit and Dashwood. That is to say, I have very little interest in TV, film, or books that were written after 1889. I adore Austen, Dickens, Gaskell and Thackeray. If it’s on Masterpiece Classic, you better believe I have a large mug of tea and am enthralled with the story that plays out before me. My utmost goal and dream for my career is to be in period films and movie musicals. So far, no one has come knocking on my door for a Persuasion remake, but I did book a commercial for Zappos where I played an 18th century primadonna.
Being called to the Edith Head building at Universal (are you kidding me? She’s my costume idol!) to try on a bunch of 18th century dresses complete with corset and endless panniers, as well as a fitting for a wig custom made for me was beyond belief. Sure, it wasn’t a film. It was almost better- I only had to be in the inordinately heavy costume for one day, AND I got to be comedic and throw a bunch of ridiculous one-liners to a present-day roommate. How fun is that??
Sometimes the actualization of our dreams don’t look how we thought they would. Doesn’t mean they’re any less of an experience in the sublime. I may never get to do a period film. But I got to wear the dress, get paid for it, and for one day, I was that character. I may not have been cast as Sally in Cabaret. But for one day, one callback, I was her. And I got to tell her story and show those decision makers what I could do. And that’s pretty amazing.