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We are in pt 5, the final part of my series on Being a Christian in Hollywood. I’m wrapping up my thoughts on the future of my place in the industry as a Christian. By now you know I don’t want to do horror, reality, faith based films, simulated sex scenes, or nudity. Some actors (Christians included) have argued for working on whatever project comes my way, and not imposing filters. I can see that point of view- “you’re a character, it’s not you”- but I guess I just want to have more control than that. I look at a story. If it’s one that needs to be told and I like the way it’s being told, I want to be a part of it. Otherwise, it’s just a paycheck and time spent away from the woodshop. I’m a storyteller. And a performer. Not singularly an actor. My stories are told through improv, theatre, film, TV, spoken word, writing, singing…I’m not in love with just acting. I’m in love with weaving a tale that will touch souls and bring them to hope, reconciliation, redemption, living better lives. Therefore, I’m not looking just to act in whatever comes my way.
In my search for my unique voice that I began last year, I came to understand that stories of reconciliation, vulnerability and hope were themes that I cling to. These are the stories I want to tell. Here are some great examples of stories that touch me and energize my desire to ignite passion in others with a similar tone.
The Secret Life of Walter Mitty. Oh, this movie. I can’t get enough of it. From the kick ass soundtrack to the gradual change of one man’s life from risk-averse to living to the fullest, this film makes me laugh, cry and hope all at once. This is a story that can be told again and again and again. It’s not affected. It’s not cheap. It’s vulnerable, it’s real and it’s lovely. It does this all without resorting to cheeseball family film territory, or rated x content. See, it can be done! Watch this immediately. Repeat on a rainy day. Then buy the soundtrack and tell me which song is your favorite. Mine is Step Out.
The Philadelphia Story. This is one of the most perfect films ever made. Tracy Lord (played to acidic gold by Hepburn) is taken on a journey over 2 days of self discovery, humility, forgiveness and relocating her heart. The dialogue is flawless, but there is so much story told in visuals as well. The character change hinges on a line spoken to Lord by her estranged father- “You have everything it takes to make a lovely woman except the one essential. An understanding heart. And without that you might just as well be made of bronze”. Out goes the model of calm, cool and poised, and enters the radiant, loving Tracy, pliable to life’s adventures.
Cinderella Man. I can’t. Just thinking about this movie makes me tear up. This is the story of boxer Jim Braddock, and his fall from fame to poverty during the Great Depression. Though he’s down on his luck “I didn’t always lose”, he somehow maintains hope, resolve, honesty, ethic, gratefulness and pride during a time so bleak that any man would crumble. Without resorting to sappy throughlines, a beautiful story is told about the power and resolve of the human spirit. If you can watch this film and not feel hopeful about living a good and meaningful life, you are a sociopath.
Emma. As you know, period films are my world. From the corsets to the restrained yet poetic speech, these films never get old for me. This is the adaptation of Jane Austen’s novel by the same name of a young matchmaking woman who is blind to her own feelings amidst the chaos of alliances, pride and the simple act of growing up. Ewan Macgregor as Frank Churchill alone will make you giggle your pants off. Watching the evolution of one woman from naive, prideful, yet kind, to real, vulnerable and honest is a delight. This movie has inspired a lifetime of trying to be a Yente for me.
Stranger Than Fiction. Emma Thompson and Dustin Hoffman alone make this consummate piece of art worthy of a lifetime of watching. Marc Forster and Zach Helm make what must’ve been one of the hardest stories to tell- it’s about a man who discovers he’s a character in a writers book- how do you even do that??- immaculate and real and funny and true. I love this movie so much, I feel like I’ve saved the best for last. Not only is it another story of a man deciding to finally live his life (I’m sensing a trend here), it’s done so cleverly and literary it will make you think for days. I can’t praise this veritable masterpiece enough.
These are a few examples of stories that are told brilliantly without any of the elements that I am avoiding in my acting career. True, they aren’t made that often, likely because it takes far more effort to make something lasting and meaningful than it does to throw together another trite action film, but when they are. Oh. My heart sings. That’s what I want. This is my future. And if I can’t be a part of others telling these stories, I’ll make my own. Because they need to be told. Humanity needs to hear that their life is worth living well. That their pride and misconceptions of others only keeps them from loving fully. That the hard choice is sometimes the best choice, and worth fighting for. That’s how this Christian plans to make her place in Hollywood.